Relationships

Relationships are one of the hardest things we as people really go through. So many of us go through so much heartache and so many bad times. Some people get hurt once and give up and become a cynic. Some of us go through many bad times and decide enough is enough and become that cynic. Some of go through literal hell it seems and somehow someway find a way to keep going. Those of us that do that I tell you we deserve good things because we put through everything and somehow still don't give up.

I am one of those people. I have gone through some hard times at my age. Everything from abusive type relationships, to players, to having to deal with a divorce, and gods knows what else. Yet, somehow I keep going. Although I have felt like giving up myself trust me it isn't always easy being someone like me! There are times even I wonder how I keep going when there are times that I just want to forget it all and just give up.

But I guess maybe part of it is that I keep telling others you cannot give up you got to keep going. Hurt happens rather we go slow or fast in a relationship. No matter if you known someone a day, days, a week, weeks, a month, months, a year, years, or forever it seems. There will be some that won't mean to hurt you but hurt you and you have to forgive them you are just not the one for you. There are some that will hurt you just to hurt you and you still got to forgive them and move on. And than there is one that will take you by your hand and show you the world and than some as long as you give them a chance.

I guess another part of me that keeps it going despite the crap is that I really do believe in love, true love to be exact. I believe that despite all I have gone through that it is out there and all I have to do is find it and have it find me. Who that is I honestly don't know. I have known some good people who I love deeply still even if I am not with them romanticly, I have known some decent people who gave me good lessons in life or really kept me hoping again even if they are no longer in my life, I have known people that really weren't great and seemed to be nothing but hurt and heartache.