Broken Hearted? You Will Love Again!

When it comes to being betrayed, I know all to well how that feels. I met my first husband while in high school. Being young and naive is a very good excuse! We had our first child at a very young age. I thought that I knew him so well. The first time it happened was only a shove, the second time too. After we married and had our second son, I knew things would get better. He wouldn't marry me if he didn't love me. The third time I was almost thrown down a flight of stairs, but our three year old son woke up and asked his father, "Daddy, what are you doing to Mommy?" That probably saved me from some broken bones. I should have left. I called the National Crisis hot line and talked to someone for about an hour, after that I just erased the memory from my mind. After all, he was my husband and he was very sorry. My husband and I bought a house, had two beautiful children and were pretty much living the American Dream. My husband had a short fuse and I knew that, so when he threw a soda can full of cigarette butts at the wall because I asked to to check on our boys, I just chalked it up is anger.

When I finally got smart, my children were turning four and seven. I was turning twenty four, and knew that it was time I put my kids first and left my husband. Of course this wasn't until he punched me in the head repeatedly, threw the dining room table at me, and literally kicked me outside, all while my two, innocent little boy's sat watching scared to move. The next day I filed for custody of our children and divorce from him. Later, I found out that my husband was having multiple affairs, one of which consisted a fifteen year old girl.

For a long time I tried to concentrate on my kids and making sure they knew it was never okay to hit a girl, and that no matter what, their dad loved them. I went to college and dated a little bit, too scared to fully trust anyone again. Then I met my current husband. He is the best thing that ever happened to me! It was hard for him at first, me constantly flinching when he raised his hand, me accusing him of looking and thinking sexual thoughts about other women. He stuck with it, and even though my trust is 99% and not 100%, it didn't ruin my life.