My Biggest Secret - I Am Afraid

My biggest secret has nothing to do with a physical ailment or an action I took part in during my teenage years. No. My biggest secret has to do with an anticipation, a future occurrence, a moment in time that has not made itself known as of yet.

Most important and at the forefront of any significant changes in my young life is my impending marriage. I am so excited to get married and live with my fiancé for the rest of my life. It is something I have been looking forward to since the day I met him. He and I have shared so many important moments in our young lives together already, I cannot imagine spending the rest of my life with someone else. I know that with our marriage will come many changes. The one change I am still not sure of how to accept is of having children.

I know parents always wonder and mull over the idea of how their children would turn out; what kind of personality would they have; would their resemblance be more like their mother or father; what will they choose as their career? Although I wonder about these things, I am terrified at the thought of all the negativity that will surround them as well. My anxiety over the types of things they will involve themselves in or be victim to range from trivial to more serious in nature.