Dealing with the Loss of Multiples More Than Once

When my husband and I were first trying to conceive, we knew it would be difficult, I have Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome. When I was diagnosed back in the 1980s with it, they called it Stein Leventhol Syndrome. I had no idea what it meant, but I knew that I didn't ovulate. So, many years later, when we decided it was time to start our family, I knew I would need a doctor's intervention. We started out slow taking the chlomid, which was the pills to help ovulation. Those didn't work at all. So we immediately went to the gonal-f injections. I had no idea what I was in store for.

While seeking out a fertility doctor, I was unaware that there were different levels of fertility doctors. I knew that my sister in law had a great Obgyn that she loved and said that it says right on his door, infertility specialist. I met with him, liked him very much and decided to sign on for treatment. He explained everything to me, how I would need to come to the hospital every other day for ultrasounds of my ovaries, how they would call me every day with updates and how to adjust the injections and doses of medication. I was very excited to kind of be in control of my treatment. The last didn't tell me anything. It was terrible. I had faith in this guy.

Second month into treatment, we were pregnant. I was so excited I never thought it would happen that fast. I couldn't wait for the ultrasound and when they called me after the first or second day with the blood test results I was even more in shock. They told me that my numbers had MORE than doubled, and they suspected I was pregnant with more than one baby, but we would have to wait for the ultrasound which was weeks away. Those weeks dragged by, they couldn't come fast enough for us.