If you haven't already read my first story called "dealing with the loss of multiples more than once", than please, stop and read that story first. This is the continuation of that story.
As you know, we had just lost our twin boys at 20 weeks gestation. It was sad and so hard to handle, however, I was bound and determined that I was going to be a mother. I was already a wonderful Mom to my husbands two children and I loved them more than anyone could imagine. It still didn't curb the urge to have my own. I wanted to go full term and have a baby, just one baby and I would be thrilled.
We went back to the doctor after taking a couple of months off. I had lost the twins in July, and by September 2002 we were pregnant again! Yay, we were so happy, but very, very scared. This time with the blood test results, they told me the numbers were really high again, so I thought oh no, twins again, a blessing and a curse. Of course until they do the ultrasound we have no idea what to expect.
Finally the day arrives for the ultrasound. We still had the same wonderful ultrasound technician her name was Pam, I remember it now. Pam asks us if we are ready and we most certainly are. I get up on the table, she first warms the jelly and wants to listen for heartbeats before going for an "inside" view. We still couldn't hear them with the doppler, so she got the wand out, and went in for a look. Now mind you, we are expecting twins at the most, and she always lets us see the screen, and I was like, ok, I see one, than two, than three, than four!!! Oh my goodness, she starts counting and there are four beating hearts, four little sacs, and they are all beating away. Quadruplets I said, wow, God is really trying to make up for the twins huh? Was my first thought, and we cried, or at least I was crying, I think my husband might have been in absolute shock at this point. She started printing out the pictures for the doctor to look at and gave us a few to look at. I just don't think it was sinking in, four babies, four all at once? I actually felt a little blessed, I thought how lucky am I that I can get pregnant this easily. Thank you God.
As you know, we had just lost our twin boys at 20 weeks gestation. It was sad and so hard to handle, however, I was bound and determined that I was going to be a mother. I was already a wonderful Mom to my husbands two children and I loved them more than anyone could imagine. It still didn't curb the urge to have my own. I wanted to go full term and have a baby, just one baby and I would be thrilled.
We went back to the doctor after taking a couple of months off. I had lost the twins in July, and by September 2002 we were pregnant again! Yay, we were so happy, but very, very scared. This time with the blood test results, they told me the numbers were really high again, so I thought oh no, twins again, a blessing and a curse. Of course until they do the ultrasound we have no idea what to expect.
Finally the day arrives for the ultrasound. We still had the same wonderful ultrasound technician her name was Pam, I remember it now. Pam asks us if we are ready and we most certainly are. I get up on the table, she first warms the jelly and wants to listen for heartbeats before going for an "inside" view. We still couldn't hear them with the doppler, so she got the wand out, and went in for a look. Now mind you, we are expecting twins at the most, and she always lets us see the screen, and I was like, ok, I see one, than two, than three, than four!!! Oh my goodness, she starts counting and there are four beating hearts, four little sacs, and they are all beating away. Quadruplets I said, wow, God is really trying to make up for the twins huh? Was my first thought, and we cried, or at least I was crying, I think my husband might have been in absolute shock at this point. She started printing out the pictures for the doctor to look at and gave us a few to look at. I just don't think it was sinking in, four babies, four all at once? I actually felt a little blessed, I thought how lucky am I that I can get pregnant this easily. Thank you God.
- Loss of Multiples
- Babies born too soon
- Effects of Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome
Comments
Cassandra
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10/06/2009
I just wanted to say thank you so much for sharing your pain. My son just turned 1 and his pregnancy started as 3. It was some of the worst days of my life hearing appointment after appointment worse and worse news. I just kept praying for something good. Then finally they told me that he was more than viable but healthy. I didn't know until 30 weeks if I would be able to carry a healthy baby
Cetcet
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09/21/2009
Thank you for sharing this very sad but powerfull story!! There are no word to say how sad i feel by just reading it!
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