Love Me?

I never thought that I could find myself in this place again. I thought I could be strong. Move on. Forget and live. But here I am again searching for a purpose a reason to hang on. And there is none. I do not ask for much. But does love exist? If it does I don't know where to find it. Am I looking in the wrong places?

I don't know what to do. I am lost. I feel so alone. Lonely. Will anyone ever really care like I care? How can things be so perfect then turn to ashes before I see the fire. When will this world end? When can I go home? Please send me home. I try to help. Maybe I try to hard and in places I am not wanted.

Why don't you love me? Why don't you miss me? Do you remember my face? Can you feel my tears? You didn't have to abandon me. You didn't have to let me go. Why did you make me go? Why am I too suborn to come back?

Where is my home? Why have I never belonged? When will I find happiness? Do I have to wait until the end? Why am I here? Who needs me? I have to be strong. I can't give up. I have a purpose, I need to find it. I need to feel alive and not want to die. Help me. Love me.

I am tired of running away, I have nowhere to run. I have no one. Give me something I can hold on to. Where have all my dreams gone? Who am I? Is this really where I need to be? If anyone is listening, I need your help. I need something, someone. Someone to give all this love to. Someone to love me back. Really love me. Why can't you love me?

Dad. Everyone needs a dad. Someone to look after you and tuck you into bed with kisses and kindness. Who will protect me when I am scared? Who will dry my tears? It will never be you, Dad. It will never be you. Why did you give up? Why am I not worth a fight? Why am I not worth a drive? A call. A minute of your time.

Time is all I have and I don't know what to do with it. Give it to someone else. A lonely old man eats alone. Yet I am full, but feel so empty. Will I always be alone? Surrounded? Set me free. Send me home. Let me live. Let me love and be loved. Why is it never good enough? Who will fill the empty space in my heart that you left? I give and give but no one gave back.

I'm ready to give up, help me to be strong. Let me hang on, before I slip away.