Strength, Courage and Wisdom

In my life, I have constantly been trying to please someone else-- my teachers, my employers, my family, my friends, the world in general-but now, I want to please me. If my attitude, or my figure or my mentality bothers you, I'm done apologizing. Get over it. I've found the "Strength, Courage and Wisdom" that has been inside of me, and I am finally accepting myself for who and what I am. I don't ask you to do the same; I just ask that you respect my decision.

I think I am finally at a place in my life where I am comfortable in my skin, and at peace with myself. I think that my being at peace makes others uncomfortable, in that because they find fault with the way I look or the way I act and think, that I should as well.

If at some point in the future, I feel the need to diet myself down to my high school weight, I will; but it won't be because of someone constantly poking my stomach or the "When was the last time you went to the gym?", or the "Wow, If I ate that, it'd go right to my thighs". It would be because I wanted to, and right now, at this very moment in my life; I don't want to. I love the fact that my body has given birth to three children, and the fact that it looks it. I love the stretch marks, the mommy lap and the added cleavage that my extra pounds give me.

I am a fickle person. I own that. I change my mind constantly, and you know what?? It's ok! I can do that. I don't have to stay on one course forever. I can add spice and flair to my life, if I decide to. Just because I liked computers and gaming last year, doesn't mean that I like it today. Just because I love shopping, and fashion and beautiful things today, doesn't mean that I will next year. The ability to change your mind, your passions, and your desires is a truly amazing gift, which I put to good use.