How to Speak Positivity

Through spiritual teachings and growth, I have learned and found it necessary to speak and think positive. At first this was a difficult concept to adopt being that I have created a less than bubbly persona. This persona was developed purely by justification. I had felt the burden of things that I couldn't control as well as my own reckless decisions, so negativity was my only way to communicate to others and to myself that I was just all around unhappy with my entire life and current situation. I started noticing that whenever I spoke to people, I was recounting what had happened and how I felt about it. What further occurred to me is that although people cared in general, they would rather not be around someone who manufactured and brought gloom everywhere. This was, in no way, helping others or myself. My complaints and difficulties only encouraged the acknowledgement of their inconsistencies. Then, there we would convene, to have a pity party.

Then, after the pity party, I was now convinced that I was doomed because of course I spoke doom into my life. I wanted the complaining to make me feel better but the exact opposite happened. My issues, the same issues that would have their solutions in due time, became heavier. All of a sudden my problems weren't opportunities; they were obstacles. In my mind I had now created a final destination. Everything was a wreck. I made it a wreck. I am suffering and I should suffer. And I made sure I spoke these feelings into every conversation that came along.

It became harder to build relationships because I had so many issues to dissolve. A friendly encounter always turned into a counseling session. I don't blame others for not wanting to spend time with me. I am also not regretful of my actions because it is truly how I felt. The real issue was and still is, would speaking ugly words create beautiful results? Probably not.