Random Thoughts of a Shattered Woman

Random thoughts of a Shattered Woman (c) 2007 Sharon Freeman

(If you've been here you'll understand what I'm feeling)

Screaming and screaming

Lord help me I'm pleading

Take this pain out of my heart

Give me some strength and heal my soul

So once again I can be whole.

I'm sitting here trying to come up with words

To deeply express what I'm feeling

Trying to understand what has gone on

So that my heart can begin healing

Never thought in a million years

That you'd be the one to betray me

But I guess it can happen...even from you

But I'm still having a hard time believing

Three months ago it could have been different

And you could have been so real

But instead you decide to burn my soul

Lord I pray you let this heal

Screaming and screaming

Lord help me I'm pleading

Take this pain out of my heart

Give me some strength and heal my soul

So once again I can be whole.

You were someone so dear to me

So a part of my world

Regardless of anything I had your back

But I see it wasn't the same

And I feel like I should take the blame

Cuz I left myself open to this attack

I love so much

I swear I do

And I'm fighting with myself to see the truth

I want to believe that you made a mistake

And that you understand how bad you've hurt me

But my better sense is telling me that it's fake

I'm sorry for the past, we can't go back

And undo the damage that's been done

But why baby WHY did you have to lie to me like this

And toy with me

When I thought a new beginning for our family had begun

Screaming and screaming

Lord help me I'm pleading

Take this pain out of my heart

Give me some strength and heal my soul

So once again I can be whole.

I want to hate you sooo bad, I swear I do

But my heart won't seem to let me

I just need something to ease this hurt I'm feeling

I can't take it because it drives me crazy

To think I had your love again

And it was me and only me in your eyes as before

To learn that you were still involved with another

And now because of you she's a new mother

It HURTS my GOD does it hurt...why did you do this to me

ME...the one you said you missed so much

The one you said you loved so bad that no one else mattered

Your first real love that was unconditional

Me who's trust and faith in you you've just shattered.