Grieving Parents: Trying to Survive the Loss of a Child

Learning to live after your child dies is the most emotionally difficult experience a parent will ever endure. It does not matter how or who. We all feel the deep loss when our children die. We all experience the why's and what if's? We have no answers as to why and we beat ourselves up over the what if's. We all dream of our children and even though they have died, we always see someone that reminds us of our baby.

No matter how young or old. Our children will always be our babies. They are the babies our hearts and souls mourn, yearn and search for.

Everyday, heartbreakingly, a child dies and a mother cries. Everyday of the year a mother misses her child that died. Everyday, somewhere, a mother faces another day without her child. Everyday a mother prays for her child. Everyday a mother wonders if her child will open the gates of heaven for her. Everyday a mother wonders if there is truly life after death. I know this, because, I am one of these mothers.

Everyday a sibling cries for the sibling that died. Everyday a sibling yearns for that best friend they lost. Everyday a sibling says "Shh, Mommy Don't Cry. It's Ok Mommy. I'm here mommy" Everyday a sibling grieves the loss; the loss of their sibling, the loss of their mommy's heart, the loss of laughter that once filled their world. Everyday the surviving sibling wonders why them and not me. Everyday somewhere a family suffers the loss of a child...I know this, because, my children are these siblings.

Everyday, somewhere a child dies and someone's heartbreaks. Everyday, somewhere, a child grieves the loss of the best friend. Everyday, somewhere society experiences the grief from the loss of a child. I know this because, because my children that died had best friends, teacher, neighbors and a town in love with them.

That day and the days that followed will forever be etched into my memory. Grief forever imprinted within the dark shadows of my eyes.