Death and Sorrow: Always Missing You in Every Tomorrow

Nothing can take away the deep sorrow, which rocks the core of my soul.

The damage is so haunting, as the fire rolls, fiercely silent leaving a hole.

The thick smoke filled the sky as you breathed your last breath.

The Fireman is running to me as I witness the house cave,

He is coming to tell me of your death.

I scream, "No! No! Save my babies! You have too! You're the Super Hero~!

Desperation and grief took my soul. The fireman said he wished it wasn't true!

I began falling into the unknown abyss of darkness

Spinning in circles, searching, seeing, hearing, but none of it makes any sense,

He seized my body as it falls lifeless into numbness

I plead for hope as I look into his eyes,

I shiver from the darkness

I see the deep hole of despair in his eyes that tells me there are no lies

Sorrowful screeches seep from my weeping soul

My baby boys have taken their last breathe and they took gods calling

I see the fireman's tears are falling

Embraced, I again fall into darkness

Into the arms of his kindness

Oh, my little angels ~!

I shed tears as my soul crumbles

Trying to learn to be humbled

My body and mind miss my little boy's hugs and kisses~

Those little angelic voices

No longer call out to me!

For this is the way it shall be~!

I am sorrowed and haunted by that day, everyday.

I do pray for you~ and I pray for me to find the understanding and strength in every-way!

I wish upon the stars; please come see mommy in mystical dreams someday~!

In this world, especially, mine~

I wish someone could say why that morning took my babies away from me~

Oh angel's of mercy, why was it to be?

Their life here ended but mine sustained...

To live life without my little boy's anyway...

It's so hard to find the strength~

The power to believe in your life after death~!

I wish I could just hold you in my arms and breathe in your cherry splash hair...

I would give anything to tousle your hair one more time~ so I can hear "Oh mom" or "Please do it again because it tickles'

~Now time is all I have~ A Memory in Time~ a time when you were mine~

Why me? I was a good mommy

I loved you so tenderly and sweetly~~!

Mommy will carry on and continue to love you so much~