Carnival Why I Love You So

I have some friends, who, as much as they love me, sort of grudgingly put up with my obsession with carnival and Kaiso and the BOY. HAHA. Maybe they don't believe me, and you can tell me if this is not the same for you, but i have an almost organic reaction to carnival.

I know this to be true because sometimes the smell of sun block on slightly sweaty skin will immediately put me back in the middle of a band. I call it HERE!

It's a specific moment , when the DJ music fades away, the people by the truck screaming for their drinks suddenly lose all sound, and the man next to you who been wining out a time the WHOLE DAMN TIME suddenly seem like he doing the Matrix dance. Its when the drink in your hand and the little pebble in your shoe losing all significance...cause right in that moment, in your cleverly designed costume that might leave you eating bread and cheese for the rest of the year, and all the fetes that didn't really come up to scratch except to give you an almost hangover but you had to be there any way don't matter...because you are HERE. And that is the moment you savor; Because in that moment you see the grand scheme of things; that even though this might be your personal experience, YOU are a single organism that is moving an entire body...you see YOUR place in this grand scheme...its Euphoric for me...An out of body experience.
I don't need another drink...i don't need a soul to be jammin on me...i could just chip chip chip chip all by myself...because I'm suddenly both bigger and smaller at the same time.

I am HERE. That is carnival.