Ideology on Genealogy: How I Figured Out Why My Family is Dysfunctional

What do I believe? I actually ask myself that question everyday. It is hard to find things to believe in and people especially. I find that every time I get my hopes up for something or have high expectations I feel that I'm always let down. Sure politics matter to me, the government, the earth, and other countries and I would probably have a lot to say on those matters. When it comes to the ideology on those topics, my ideas came from the influence of television. When the topic of what truly matters to me comes up I hesitate but I know what matters to me, saving the world. I would love to do that but it is kind of hard when you cannot save yourself from yourself.

I think the turning point in influencing my personality came when my baby sister was born. I had been the only child for nine years and all of a sudden I was getting a sister. This was new to me I didn't know how to react. I was excited at first because it was a brand new baby to take care of, kind of like playing house. Then a few years later another kid came this time a boy. Yay. I did not realize at the time that my family would change and that I would never get the chance to be as close to my parents as they should be with their kids. Right now we are not close as we should be and there is something missing in our relationship. Right now my family relationship is distance compared to what I would like it to be. I would like us to be able to talk to each other about anything and right now it is hard to discuss what we did throughout our day. I believe that is the main reason that leads me to think the way I do now. But their could be another reason I think the way I do, somewhere down the road I took a wrong turn in my life and I am trying to figure out where it was and how to fix it. I mean maybe my thinking came from bad influences like socializing with friends.