Self Harm and Why I Did It

Self harm - Is it attention Seeking? Well in my personal experience of this subject, no it is not. The reason why I say this is because personally speaking I used to self harm myself, and I never did it for people to see, I never told anyone that I did it, and even to this day my parents still dont know that I did it. I was a teenager when I first self-harmed myself, I was never really happy with myself, I always looked at other girls and wished I was as pretty as them or as thin as them. I hated going to school, I struggled with certain subjects at school, and never felt like I fitted in.

From that time when my teenager years began I suffered with depression. I felt lonley all the time, I felt like I had no life, that I would never be anybody. Years later it had got so bad, that I was taken to the Doctor by my boyfriend because all I was doing was crying, all the time and for no reason. It was so bizarre that I cant even remember it that well. I lost so much weight, and practically stopped eating, I began mumbling to myself, I was cold all the time, and then I would lock myself away in the bathroom, and get a razor and cut myself... then I would feel better. My boyfriend was the onlt person who knew what I had done to myself, and luckily for me he stood by me, and even when I was doing it and didnt tell him what I had done, he said nothing he just took care of me. I was never judged by him for what I had done, but I have read some articles that suggest that people who self harm, are only doing it to get the attention that they need in their lives. Well this is so wrong.