The Sleeping Christian

There was a time in my life where I did not believe that God existed. I had heard the Gospel, but I did not see it as truth, instead I treated it as a ridiculous fable concocted by man in order to enslave those that were brought under its power. I had heard the stories in the Bible, I found them to be flights of fancy, just legends, and fairy tells to entertain those that would hear them. It was a time of darkness in my life with no hope and only despair to keep me company as I only tried to survive through the ordeal of living.

I thought of God as a cruel and viscous being that only chose to destroy and punish those that would not obey him. If that were God, then I would never bow to such a cruel being. I put myself above God and I did not know the truth because I was in darkness, though I did not know it yet. As quickly as God came into my knowledge, I pushed him aside and believed instead what the world had to say. I believed that there was no miracle to life, and that all of existence was nothing more than a cosmic accident.

I came to believe that man was nothing more than an evolved beast, yet a beast nonetheless. I considered myself wise in believing these things because in watching the behavior of men it was easy to see them as beast. Therefore, my Lord let me slumber and did not awaken me to the truth until the time was right. Now, because of the mercy and grace of my Lord, I have been awaken and I find that those things that I have done and said were nothing more than the foolish expressions of a man with no knowledge of the things of God.

I live in regret of my foolish ways and I am never able to forget those things, which I had done, or said. However, because God is merciful and loves us, he made a way for us to be with him. It was through a sacrifice, a perfect sacrifice. His only begotten Son was the lamb, which was slain for the sins of the world, and his name is Jesus. Many men have their opinion of Jesus just as I had. For a long time I did not believe he ever existed and that he was nothing more than a fairy tale much like the Easter Bunny or Santa Claus.