Time and Unforeseen Occurrences

Chapter Two: What Was She Thinking

I knew Monique was depressed and going through some changes, but taking her life is not the answer. What was she thinking? I've got enough problems of my own and here Monique goes and and starts tripping. I bet it had something to do with Miles and him popping home every other day and she practically taking care of their finanances on her own. I wish she could just see that she's better off without him. Just last week we had a conversation on this very thing and I thought she had got the point, but she was getting very defensive and even trying to turn the subject on to me as if my problems are in the same category as hers. And what's with that depressing Phyllis Hyman she's always listening to. Phyllis was probably listening to her own depressing songs when she took her own life. Monique acts as if she is the only one with problems, I have my own but I know how to deal with them.

I am a Registered Nurse, a professional who eats to hide her own insecurities. I have a set of three year old twins and a nine month year old boy that I love to death, but sometimes just looking at them depresses me. I have a husband whom I am always hearing through the grapevine has had more extramariatal affairs than Elizabeth Taylor has had husbands, I was sexually molested as a child, but still I have never thought of taking my own life.

A lot of women wouldn't stay with my husband Jeffrey the way that I have, but I know Jeffrey, he loves me, I know he does, I can feel it. Until there's proof of these rumors my marriage is staying intact. Besides to be honest, between my babies, my job and keeping the house clean, I be too tired to worry about anything, especially rumors. Besides Jeffrey is a good provider, we live in a beautiful three bedroom, three bath brick ranch style home. I drive a Chrysler Mini Van that's two years old, and he has a Cadillac Escalade. One thing is for sure they might be getting his body, but they sure are not getting his money. He hands that over to me!!! But I told him if I ever catch him or he brings home a disease to or another baby by some hoochie, he got to go, and I'm still going to be getting the money.