Dieing with Christ - a Testimony of Research Scientist

1] Before dieing
2] My death In Christ
3] Awakening to Christ
4] Divine design

Before Dieing

Though a Christian, I was not a believer. I don't remember going to church on my own. I went to church and had occasions to listen to words of Bible because I Loved my mother and could not deny her when she called me to Church. I did not find joy in going to church and the words never entered my mind. As a youngster I loved to play my Sunday with friends. I hated religion. Certain childhood experience influenced it. One Sunday I was playing with my friends. All of them were Hindus. An elderly person appeared and began organizing some games for us. We all loved it. The next Sunday he appeared in a uniform. We were asked to sit in a circle and then began self introduction. I was asked to leave the group when I said my name. My sin was I am a Christian. Later I came to know that the elder organizing the game was a Hindu [RSS worker]. When I asked the church priest about it, I saw two starring eyes and an order not to go near them. What was denied in the process was my joy of the Sunday. The first seed of my hatred towards division in the name of religion probably exist here.

As I grew up I tended to believe that religion is the invention of the intelligent to rule the ignorant. My attempt to question the priests for sensible explanation to what they preach was always put down by authority. My education in science was giving a mind set, which was failing to digest what these priest were preaching about creation, birth of Christ, His death, Resurrection, Second coming and so on. They seem to emphasize Judgment and hell and infuse fear in to mass and control them such that they can feed themselves and have a good life.