BESIDE MYSELF AGAIN

Beside myself again. . .
And I don't like what I see.

No longer my only friend. . .
I'm now my own worst enemy.

And I hate it like this, but what can I do. . .
The pain has split my heart in two.

A broken heart of equal shares. . .
The one who hates, the one who cares.

And I miss you each and everyday. . .
And everyday I count the ways.

And let me tell you they are many!

But then that's always been my biggest problem. . .
And now I know it's true.

I love too much and so do you. . .
Just not each other---that's all.

So I've gotta find the strength to get over you. . .
But I really don't know how.

Like I said---I'm beside myself now.

And I'm feeling all hollow and empty inside. . .
Like all that was good about me has died.

And I'm so far gone. . .
And I feel so used.

To tell you the truth. . .
I've got nothing to lose.

Might as well make the 6:00 o'clock news!

But I don't want to cause you any pain. . .
And I'm trying real real hard.

And it's dark in here. . .
And getting hard to see.

And I don't understand what is happening to me!

Did I care too much?
Have I lost my mind?

Will I ever know a love that's kind?

And about this hollow feeling of mine. . .
Did you know that it's a lot like you?

It comes and goes as it pleases too.

And I'm not complaining. . .
The acoustics are great.

But at least an echo happens over and over. . .
And then slowly fades away.

I wish you were more like an echo. . .
In fact, I really wish you would stay.

But that's not going to happen. . .
And I'm well aware that we're through.

And so I'm feeling crushed velvet and electric blue. . .
In every shade imaginable!

And I don't know how else to describe it. . .
This feeling that somehow I'm not real.

My transparent silhouette all empty and hollow. . .
I'm only an outline of who I used to be.

And it's easy to see if you look into my eyes. . .
That I'm somewhere else where your memory lies.

Some in color and black and white too. . .
These beautiful moving pictures of you.

And I'll say it again---Can you hear me now?
Cause this time I want to be sure.

I love you still and I always will. . .
And I'm not even looking for the cure.

And I don't understand why your doing this to me. . .
Cause I stand on the brink of insanity.

Hopelessly lost without you!