Loving You,loving Me

When the feeling is good,
I don't wish to leave,
Touching you endlessly because my body says i should,

The feeling of uncertainty crashes my mind,
i wish the good times never touched me,
I wish i was given a sign,

Now I'm loaded with butterflies within,
not a heaven sent feeling,
but one that hurts as if I've sinned,

I may be wrong about the mood I'm in,
I may be wrong of what your love may bring,
Maybe I'm just scared that there's no such love,
lustful words and feelings mistaken by love,

I know not how to explain to you,
what this pain in my heart feels,
I don't believe in your love-with my heart,
maybe just for the moment you planned to steal,

I want to hold on to you,
At the same time,
I feel the need to run fast,
My heart tells me you'll leave me crying last,

I believe with me,
Your whispers are all lies,
I believe you truly love me,
Like a hurt bird left in the street to die,

I believe you play games,
when you tell me you miss me,
I believe you're telling someone else just the same,

I call you but all my attempts are being ignored,
My instinct tells me you're being occupied,
and for that moment I shut down inside,

I can't do this to myself,
I can't suffer for a moment's pleasure,
I don't know what to believe,
with your love-I don't know how to measure.....