Speaking Your Mind - Censoring Yourself

I'm a person who seems to always say what comes my mind. Speaking is such a natural thing but I actually have to work hard at it.

I speak without thinking sometimes. Just today as I was leaving work, I blurted out something to my co-worker that I shouldn't have. I just blurted out something that came to my mind without giving it a second thought.

There are many other times when I've said stuff to people other than my family that I shouldn't have said. I have realized I need to think before I speak. I need to censor what I say. I feel embarrassed now about some of the things I've told people.

When I'm around family I am a very open person. I share almost everything with members of my family. It makes me feel closer to them and I like to feel that I have nothing to hide from them.

I now feel like I need to censor myself with people until I get real close to them and feel comfortable enough with them. I guess that's just the way it is and until then I'm going to continue to be nervous speaking around people I don't know. I'm just beginning to realize these things.

I just started a new job and I am really going to watch what I say and how I say it until I feel comfortable with people. But even after feeling comfortable with them I'll have to always be careful in the workplace. At least I know I can be free around family but wait who am I kidding, even around family you have to censor yourself!