For MGK

sometimes you have to go back to the moment you first heard something and remember the feeling it gave you back then. i was cleaning the kitchen and listening to 'What's the story, Morning Glory' and i just about lost my mind. i sat down and cried so hard.i still have tears streaming down my face as i type these words to you. i remember how deeply affected i was the first time i heard these songs and the man that introduced this music to me was someone i loved so much. How he used to read me poetry and sing me these songs in his very off key voice and i didn't care. one of those times where you suddenly remember an exact moment where a piece of music came into your soul and attatched itself to you permanently. when you know your life will never ever be the same because you found this thing that touches you..or more like crashes into you like a train. i hurt still from losing this relationship. a lot of people thought he was wrong for me, and perhaps they were right, but that's not what made it be over. it was one of the most loving full relationships i have ever had.. and i saved every thing he ever wrote for me.
Now he's all grown up with a wife and three children and i don't think he'll ever truly know how much he meant to me. I hope he does.losing him is one of my biggest regrets. And i am sorry.

'Here's a thought for every man who tries to understand
What is in his hands
He walks along the open road of love and life
To find it if he can (but only if he can)
Bound with all the weight of all the words he tried to say
Chained to all the places that he never wished to stay
Bound with all the weight of all the words he tried to say
As he faced the sun he cast no shadow '