Abortion: My Story, My Heartache

June 2005

I've never had much luck with guys, always chasing after the wrong ones. I was 17 years old and just graduated. Drew was different, though; at least that's what I thought. I met Drew through a mobile phone chat. He was the first person to talk to me in the room and was very funny. He eventually asked me for my phone number and I gave it to him. We talked on the phone forever, and when we weren't on the phone we were in the chat room messaging each other. After a few weeks of talking he asked if we could meet. I had never met someone from the Internet in person. I was a little unsure, but I told him OK.

A few nights later, after I got out of work, Drew was out in the parking lot. He had short, blond hair and blue eyes. Although he wasn't really my type, I thought it wouldn't hurt to stay friends. We sat in my car and talked. He asked if he could kiss me and I said sure. While we were kissing he put his hand on the inside of my thigh and started moving it up. I pushed his hand away and said, "I'm sorry if you think I'm that type of girl but I am not." He kept trying and saying, "Oh come on, I won't tell anyone." I was angry and upset. I told him I needed to get home and I left it at that. He apologized to me the next day. He swore to me that he didn't mean to come off that strong and he wanted another chance.

July 2005

Drew and I started dating a few weeks later. I didn't call him my boyfriend but we acted like it. One night I went to his house and we were lying on his bed talking. He turned over to me and started kissing me. As we were making out he slowly took off my clothes till I was completely naked. He got up really fast and said, "I need to tell you something. I can't keep it from you anymore. If you hate me then you can put your clothes back on and you may leave." My heart was pounding. I had no idea what he was about to tell me.

"I'm on probation for drugs" he said. "I don't do drugs anymore. I have been completely clean for years now." I thought to myself, "That's it? I thought he was going to tell me he killed someone."

That night was our first time.

September 2005