Like a Whisper to a Scream

It was in the vision of a dream
That all that was lost was found
The candlelight defined the shadows on the walls and ceiling
Illuminating all around.
It was there and then a face was seen
Hovering above sheets of white
A smile so bright it seemed to be gleaming
And made the remaining darkness turn to light.

It was then I found my faith in being
The first moment my heart truly skipped a beat
I turned to find I was no longer blind
And all that rose from within my body was heat.
Every sensation, every feeling
Trembling hands can hold no more
When a heart is so full of everything, yet nothing
I often wonder then what it’s all for.

I remember a time when things seemed too simple
Almost easy in their way
When all eyes cast upon me were filled with love
There was no deceit, no hate or rage.
When Santa Claus was more than a fairy tale
So many ghosts no one had ever seen
One does not need to see the presence
To know it is there or believe.

It is that childhood I long for now
When hearts held me at night, in their wake
Before time took its toll, jaded me
Before my first mistake.
Before I knew of the world’s coldness
And what burns in the hearts of those
Who take everything, giving nothing in return
Sometimes our hearts take us away to places we don’t even know.

It is there that I have longed for forgiveness and understanding
Trying to take away everyone’s pain
Instead I have reflected it onto myself
And it burns me even more when I walk alone in the rain.
For my heart that used to beat so strong and clear
Sometimes faulters even now
And I am left to wonder where this will end
How long it will take and will I be absolved somehow.

It is I who is now the prisoner of the mind
And the visions so strong once are no longer clear
So I sit and ponder the existence of love and time
And if my time is truly near.
If that be so and GOD should take me
Wake me in the middle of a dream in the night
At least my salvation will be complete
Surrounded by the stars, my loved ones gone, all reflected in the candlelight.