Mixed Emotions

I hate you and love you all the same time
Their feelings that I keep bottled up inside
I try to move on but others I resist
Your the one I truly want to be with.

Than we'll hang out and your morals aren't right
I go home and analyze the situation that night
Your a completely different person in every way
I know now that I must stay away

I'm not in love with you
It's only the past that I miss
Why didn't I realize when everyone told me this?
I no longer even recognize who you are
So theres no way you could be my shining star

I could envision a love that lasted forever
You blinded me with words and thought you were clever
It's not that simple I can see right through you now
I know you history and what you like to do.

I'm the only one who knew what you could be
It took me years to realize it was all just a dream
Because your still on the corner with the beer and the drugs
I cannot surround my life with all that it's a paralyzing bug

So you go out and you have all your fun
I have given up on you, thats it I'm done