The B Word - Assassinating a Woman's Character

I've been called the B word, mostly from my brothers. And it really was painful for me. Verbal abuse is just as debilitating as physical abuse.
calling someone names certainly can count for verbal abuse. It just goes to show that some people are toxic. And you have to get away from them and distance yourself from Toxic people.

But it can be especially overwhelming coming from a family where your brothers abused you for no good reason and your really sensitive. I can say I've had some relief from this through meditation and prayer. And especially being grateful for the abundant beauty of nature. I'd say I was shell shocked from years of fighting with my brothers. It made me paranoid and kept me from marriage. But Jesus heals all wounds.

I have forgiven them and moved on, but its hard for me to deal with relationship troubles. I am quick to yell, be the first so they can't abuse you first, I am quick to give up on relationships. Bitter, and exhausted from trying so hard. And now that I am losing weight, I am especially sensitive to men being inappropriate with me. I'll admit I'm not very fun. But I have had wonderful friendships with people I admire. Wonderful boyfriends. And some unrequited love as well. But I have a passion for life. And I will make it through these speed bumps.

No sense making mountains out of mole hills as they say. I am very nice to people. And can carry a conversation as well as anyone. But ask me if I can get belligerent, not that I want to but I do sometimes. But the B word? Do I look like I have four legs and eat dog do? You can bet I take offense to that.

The language of English is grand and takes words from many different languages. But to be so crass as to call someone a B word just doesn't justify comment. I'll say that I am opinionated. I want a nice life. But that doesn't mean I want to be called names.

So before you call someone a name, think about whether you are doing them harm or proving what a toxic and unforgiving human you are. It just might be the kettle calling the pot black. Often times we accuse others of doing something we are doing. Its just human nature I guess to want to destroy others for our own benefit.