I Crave You Still

That is why I feel so weak and needing to sleep.

I f.u.c.k.i.n.g. hate myself for ending up like this though I keep thinking that there is a reason.

The biggest lost, the thing that hurts the most for me is loosing you.

God I miss you.

I was crying and I could still f.u.c.k.i.n.g. tears on edge ready to flow in this computer room with other guys.

god I miss you.

just the few moments we spent together

just holding you, reading to you poems and Rumi,

hearing you laugh, singing to you even though you were going to the CSN&Y concert without me, with himhim

SO I was crying in the sick room and had to come downstairs and say, write I miss you.

what little, little time we had and how you have had such hughe effect on me.

It should not have worked that way, but your love i crave, i crave for you.