Chasing Plans: A Song by Me

Verse
You'd never guess that I'm no good
Nothing ever goes well in my head
Life's what happens when you make other plans
Guess I must have misunderstood
Old habits are hard to break
Just let me down please, easy
I won't be the first; I won't be the last
Don't really care, it's too much to take
An empty bed is so cold
I am dreaming someone else's dream
I like the me I am when I'm alone
Easy to love, but hard to hold

Pre Chorus
Everybody talks but no one listens
Waiting for the moment that never comes
Just for fun, allow me to be strong
For once, I'm only asking for more time
How did something so right go so wrong?
But, I'm okay; I don't need any pity
And I'll be the one that gets away
So, if heaven exists, please take me

Chorus
Give me some room
Give me five minutes alone
I need some time to think about the future
My past isn't the best example; I'm such a loser
I've done everything to enjoy breathing
I'm running out of hope with good reason
Chasing shadows deep within my mind
Falling back behind closed doors
I'm a mess; such a failure
I must confess I'm in no shape
To drive my plans into action
No satisfaction, but I know
I don't live here anymore

Verse Two
I had never been so wrong
Empty pockets full of change, but nowhere to spend
Living with shame, my constant friend
Then suddenly I'm more than gone
The birthday boy all dressed in black
A veil on his face to hide the truth
Speak your heart now before life ends
I hope it doesn't come to that
I'm giving up my broken wings
The point of which I never could
Be careful of what you wish for
I'm too clever for my own good

Pre Chorus
Everybody talks but no one listens
Waiting for the moment that never comes
Just for fun, allow me to be strong
For once, I'm only asking for more time
How did something so right go so wrong?
But, I'm okay; I don't need any pity
And I'll be the one that gets away
So, if heaven exists, please take me