I'm Alone

Today was like any other day for me, I wake up early alone, I drink coffee alone, I walk out onto the porch to check out the day alone & I watch T.V alone. Noon comes around and yes I'm still alone in this house, There are people here but I'm alone. I eat lunch alone and get things going before I have to get to work. I go in the bathroom and get dressed for work. I make a pot of coffee sit at the table, look at the days I have to work, figure out my hours and how much money I have made so far, I then get my coffee sit back down again alone, then figure out what bills I have and what might be short until my next payday. I say goodbye to everyone and go to work. I walk to work and Yes I walk alone. I work till night and walk home so happy when it is close to closing at work knowing I will be going home to see the ones I love, I get like a little kid who has not seen their parents for days, I get home and Alone, The downstairs is dark and messy, The kitchen is messy dishes every where, no one is down stairs to greet me when I get home, I put my purse down and take off my shoes, I walk quietly up the stairs to surprise them that I am home, hoping and thinking that something would be different this time but nothing. I say hello and I get , Hi or He is off the phone or in the middle of a games. I talk a little bit and I get a few words back, no one cares if I'm here or gone, they don't even know when I am gone, So I walk back down stairs to being alone once again it starts all over, I go to bed alone with no I missed you , how was your nite at work, no I love you or not even a arm around me to let me know I'm not alone. I'm so alone and sad that it has become my way of life.