Survivor of Suicide

The time has come the end of my life
The years we can't deny a life spent on earth
The many friends I'll have to leave behind
I know my rights and details of how
I even have an idea clear almost a time
Even. I had each detail mapped out
Exactly my wishes of how
I know you will find this quite sad for you
My family most of all.
But if I plan when and how why be sad for me?
I was able to pick the time and place the cause
And every detail surrounding my end here
After all.
Although you find this very selfish
The stunt really wasn't planned at all
Oh I spoke of it now again but crying wolf
Was all back when.
I never expected to have drank this night
While the sadness boiled or depression
Something that with the next drink I'd find
I was in my car carbon monoxide it like
Had paralyzed me no matter had I not really
Agreed or wanted to die was my reality
See I planned a stunt but really I perhaps
Never meant to actually succeed
The truth it was a spontaneous gesture or act
That went bad
I now left behind my eight year old girl and
My baby boy of two a future marriage plans
All the dreams that never fulfilled and now
Forcertain never will.

This is truly a dedication for all the survivors of suicide
Attempts. Also to those that maybe planning that
Really are struggling this could help you know
That an attempt is just as serious when
The consequence is permanent and death.