Finding Love Online

I felt alone and unwanted by the world. Never really having anyone to call my own I found myself being a woman in my early 20's whose never been asked out on a date let alone been kissed. I had become consume with my own little world that I forgot what it meant to look outside it. I needed school to fill an empty void in my heart and filled the rest with long hours on the job. It was the only way I knew to keep these feelings quite. The moment I stopped I knew that just to think about it this world would become empty and I would be thrust into this great depression. So I decided to do what any other girl looking for a date. I went online on this dating web site. Realize that I could spend $50 to subscribe and live down the embarrassment that I had for even thinking of such a foolish plan. So I posted an add and for the first several weeks it went untouched.

I believe myself to be quite attractive or at least fool myself into thinking that just because we need some sense of illusion in the harsh reality. By the third week my profile was answered by a very attractive Naval Pilot name, Josh. At first we started talking over simple online messages that quickly turned into the exchanging of numbers. I felt so alive every time I spoke to him or even text him just to see how he was. I had never felt this feeling of longing in my heart that I needed him more than I could ever need anything before. So I decided that it was time to meet him but I still felt I was unready. After a couple of embarrassing moments and steamy calls that lead to something more I realize I knew I was ready. Or at least I wanted to be, I wanted to meet the man who could strike such a passion in me to make me truly feel beautiful.

So when he last called I realize that it was now or never. When he asked me for the second time on a real date I replied yes before I had the chance to change my mind. So as it was I had a date with a couple stranger who I only spoke to a couple of times on the phone hoping that it would be the same and no awkward feeling with come between us.