Deciding What You Want For Your Future

It is almost a guarantee that if you ask someone what they don’t want to do, they are equipped with a healthy list that they take great pride in. These are their boundaries, rules, and pre-requisites they have set between them and the world. From intimate relationships to career goals, the “don’t want” list is very specific. This makes you feel like the King or Queen of your “Want-Not” Dynasty. However, ask someone what they want and most of us have no idea at all or mentions something that is so broad in scope that it has just become a conversation-filler and means nothing really. It just ends up sounding great or at least we think that it does.

If someone had asked about my future plans, I would say that I wanted to start my own business. Sounds good, doesn’t it? I was hoping that no one would ask me anything else because I did not have much to say after that. Of course I want to start my own business, but what kind? and when? Well, for your information, that was fluid. I thought maybe “sometime” in the future, closer to the present but definitely before my 50th birthday but that date may change. I was absolutely serious about this. Of course it sounded like a load of crap because it was.

Strange things happen when you step in your load of crap too many times. You find that you stink. You don’t reek because you desire a better, more fulfilling life; you actually carry the stench of a person who talks a good game. First, I had a really stern conversation with myself. The topic of the conversation was whether or not I was going to do this “business” thing. If not, it was time to let it go and never say anything about it again. Why? Mainly because when you plan to do something in life, it seems to hang over your head, crowd your thoughts and remind you that you gave up. This makes it very difficult to possibly seek out other passions and cultivate new plans. I didn’t stick a fork in it. I was not done. Whether or not I had decided on starting a business, I had now made a decision and I was proud and felt like I had accomplished something already.